What shocking violence have you experienced and how have you reacted?

Was I a child whose natural tendency was towards inner peace? Do people in general have a natural tendency towards inner peace? I don’t know the answer to either question, but I suspect yes. Then what would a child like that do when confronted with the excessive anger of several men who are members of a hate and rage cult? We have the age-old fight or flight instincts until we’re able to work past duality. The first and second time I fought back, but with disastrous consequences to the other children. I also tried to have all the children run away and that was even more devastatingly disastrous. I was made to believe they all died that night. Then survival mode kicked in. I walled off the emotions with the memories to be remembered when I had the ability and safety to deal with it.