What we tell ourselves sets the tone for just about everything. I get glimpses of a part of my being that has a much higher perspective, that stretches my ability to imagine, that stretches any and all perceived boundaries, that seems to be able to look past any horizon. When I’m not reaching for that, I feel that I’m less than. And that’s simply not true. If I didn’t perceive boundaries, limitations and horizons; how would I know I was being stretched past them? Obviously there’s value to living this life on Earth or I wouldn’t be doing it. I forget to give credit to what boundaries and limitations do for us. It gives some people a sense of safety, a sense of control. And there are times when these feel important. Life is a dance between immersion and awakening. I feel a limitation. I demonstrate a way past the cause of that limitation. That cause is my perception. When I look at it differently and free myself from various illusions, I see more opportunities and alternatives.

So I immersed my identity and focus in feeling the limitation and then I awakened to new opportunities and alternatives. During the process I learned about myself. I also expanded how I identify myself.

I forget that the process has merit in itself. I tell myself I shouldn’t have felt the limitation in the first place. But if I hadn’t, then I wouldn’t have gone on the journey of demonstrating my path past it. And I might have missed learning a little more about myself beyond all these limitations and boundaries. But then when I yield to the very same limitation again, how harsh and judgmental I become. Isn’t it silly to apply that much importance to it.

If I found myself driving on a road I had already experienced as a dead end; I’d simply turn around and return to the main road to go experiment elsewhere and think nothing of it. Why wouldn’t I treat momentarily yielding to an old limitation with the same kind of attitude. “Oops. I already know about this one. I don’t have to explore it again.” Or if I decide I want to explore it further, fine.

As I say my morning prayers, I also ask my higher self how it would like me to experience it today. I feel my shoulders relax and close my eyes and breathe, as if I had been holding my breath without being aware that I was barely breathing. Now, I focus on taking deep breaths and with each I relax a little more. I was about to take my day seriously. If I hadn’t taken this moment to tune in to my higher self, I would have gotten angry about the water bill. Instead, I laugh it off and groan that I’ll have to call them on Monday. But it has gone from being important to being a minor nuisance. There would have been the fear of lost money and the need to fight for what’s right. Now, it’s of little consequence with a wait and see attitude of no real concern. I’ve done that before, where I’ve spent days preparing for a fight that never happened. When I would actually get to talk to the person, they agreed immediately with no struggle. So I had wasted all that expressed anger and energy in preparation for what turned out to be nothing. Now, I know I can trust myself to respond appropriately in the moment. Of course, the mind that likes to endlessly repeat cyclic thoughts activates periodically. But when I catch it, I gently turn my thoughts elsewhere. I like this calmer perspective better. And I get to enjoy my day.

Wow! Nearly two  years since the last post. What happened was that my focus changed. I decided to heal the trauma from my very first embodiment. Now I seem to be back on the track of expressing the higher self again. But also, I want to share my thoughts on equality and balance. So the posts will be split between the two subjects.