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Creating Inner Peace – Confidant

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Who is the friend and confidant in your childhood that has helped you build a firm foundation?

Example: For me I can remember at age five creating a soft bed for Jesus at Christmas. This helped me create a personal relationship with Jesus as my friend and confidant. I would write him letters and talk to him in my heart. Some might say imaginary friend, but others understand the reality of immortal beings and that both spiritual and material worlds exist in tandem. Looking at Jesus as a person and as a friend definitely gives me a sense of peace. Just the thought helps me relax. It’s sort of like knowing there is someone who always has your back, who you can always turn to for help. Who fits this bill in your life?

Self-talk

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What we tell ourselves sets the tone for just about everything. I get glimpses of a part of my being that has a much higher perspective, that stretches my ability to imagine, that stretches any and all perceived boundaries, that seems to be able to look past any horizon. When I’m not reaching for that, I feel that I’m less than. And that’s simply not true. If I didn’t perceive boundaries, limitations and horizons; how would I know I was being stretched past them? Obviously there’s value to living this life on Earth or I wouldn’t be doing it. I forget to give credit to what boundaries and limitations do for us. It gives some people a sense of safety, a sense of control. And there are times when these feel important. Life is a dance between immersion and awakening. I feel a limitation. I demonstrate a way past the cause of that limitation. That cause is my perception. When I look at it differently and free myself from various illusions, I see more opportunities and alternatives.

So I immersed my identity and focus in feeling the limitation and then I awakened to new opportunities and alternatives. During the process I learned about myself. I also expanded how I identify myself.

I forget that the process has merit in itself. I tell myself I shouldn’t have felt the limitation in the first place. But if I hadn’t, then I wouldn’t have gone on the journey of demonstrating my path past it. And I might have missed learning a little more about myself beyond all these limitations and boundaries. But then when I yield to the very same limitation again, how harsh and judgmental I become. Isn’t it silly to apply that much importance to it.

If I found myself driving on a road I had already experienced as a dead end; I’d simply turn around and return to the main road to go experiment elsewhere and think nothing of it. Why wouldn’t I treat momentarily yielding to an old limitation with the same kind of attitude. “Oops. I already know about this one. I don’t have to explore it again.” Or if I decide I want to explore it further, fine.

What contributes to change?

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Is it any wonder that people determine change? People do decide within their own minds what they will and won’t tolerate. And when enough people agree not to tolerate something, a tension builds. And although the ‘powers that be’ will delay as long as possible; they simply must eventually succumb. Yet, how many people think that what they determine in their own minds truly has an effect on the world?

Enjoying vs worrying

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As I say my morning prayers, I also ask my higher self how it would like me to experience it today. I feel my shoulders relax and close my eyes and breathe, as if I had been holding my breath without being aware that I was barely breathing. Now, I focus on taking deep breaths and with each I relax a little more. I was about to take my day seriously. If I hadn’t taken this moment to tune in to my higher self, I would have gotten angry about the water bill. Instead, I laugh it off and groan that I’ll have to call them on Monday. But it has gone from being important to being a minor nuisance. There would have been the fear of lost money and the need to fight for what’s right. Now, it’s of little consequence with a wait and see attitude of no real concern. I’ve done that before, where I’ve spent days preparing for a fight that never happened. When I would actually get to talk to the person, they agreed immediately with no struggle. So I had wasted all that expressed anger and energy in preparation for what turned out to be nothing. Now, I know I can trust myself to respond appropriately in the moment. Of course, the mind that likes to endlessly repeat cyclic thoughts activates periodically. But when I catch it, I gently turn my thoughts elsewhere. I like this calmer perspective better. And I get to enjoy my day.

Artificial Divisions

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There are so many artificial divisions that people uphold. The idea that men have to be dominant and women have to passive is one concept that causes an artificial division. The idea that certain people are “born to rule or have a talent for ruling” is an artificial division that keeps the majority of people in the governed position, instead of all standing as “we the people.” Breaking the United States into Democrats versus Republicans or vice versa is another. That certain cultures are superior to other cultures creates all sorts of ludicrous situations. The distribution of money and the concept that it has to be that way or even should be that way is another artificial division that we as a people could let go of. Isn’t it time?

What happened?

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Wow! Nearly two  years since the last post. What happened was that my focus changed. I decided to heal the trauma from my very first embodiment. Now I seem to be back on the track of expressing the higher self again. But also, I want to share my thoughts on equality and balance. So the posts will be split between the two subjects.

Inner Path

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I have found my path to be an inner path. Outer paths have not worked for me; although some forms of prayer, meditation, visualization, chanting and yoga are helpful tools. I get lots of assistance and suggestions from various people; but I’ve never agreed with expecting someone else to make it happen for me, especially through some outer ritual. There was a time when a participatory ritual helped me believe that was actually shifting into a new phase in my journey; but now I just know within. By coming into embodiment on Earth we have taken on an overcoat of illusions. Even though we have all taken on similar illusions; the way we have reacted internally is unique to each one of us. Our reactions are what form the veil between our four lower bodies and our higher self. And since only we know how we have reacted within, only we can free ourselves of these reactions. What I’ve found is that I free myself by a process of observation. I observe my internal reactions to outer circumstances. Then I identify how I’m feeling because of my own reactions. Then I look at the beliefs I harbor that might be behind these feelings and determine whether I want to hang on to these beliefs or modify them. And then I look at how these feelings and beliefs relate to how I currently identify myself and determine if I want to modify the view I have of myself. Many people call this process resolving one’s psychology.

I was talking with this man, who is both a Buddhist monk and a Catholic priest from India. I said I had never been to any Eastern countries beyond some of the Asian countries, and asked if my intuitive perception that people with a basis in Eastern spirituality tend to make themselves more available to spiritual events in their lives, that they have a part to play in answered prayer. It seemed that people with a basis in Western spirituality have an almost entitled attitude in their prayer life, that we tend to have a sort of God as Santa Claus approach to prayers. As I said this, I realized it applied to me; just like most things people say apply more to themselves than anyone else. I’ve waited for a large chunk of my life for my higher self to sort of magically show up. When I did recognize my responsibility for “preparing the way;” I felt it was too overwhelming to actually ever achieve. A lot of people don’t recognize a need or their own power to make changes in their lives so they can manifest their spiritual goals. I just hadn’t given myself credit for the progress I had indeed made already.

I am the light that I shine.

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I’ve always known light shines thru me, but I still thought of its source as separate from any part of me. Only in the last month did I learn that I am that light. During that intense weekend where we either asked ourselves “Who am I?” or “What am I?” we did these exercises called dyads. Here is a link if you want more info, https://www.pathofheart.us/. As I struggled to put into words Who am I; I realized I can only experience it as I’m willing. Words are not really going to describe it. But at one point the words “I am the light that I shine” fell out of my mouth and that was profound for me. Some more of the separation between material and spiritual slipped away. Still I know I’m not the creator of the unique blend of light that shines through me. Definitely and thankfully there is something greater than me. But I am an expression of the creator. I am that unique blend that was created. I currently have at least one Omega aspect that expresses on this Earth physically, mentally and emotionally and has a sense of identity. And I have an Alpha aspect that I refer to as spiritual, that is pure awareness. This Omega aspect, which is conscious in the physical is learning more and more about this Alpha aspect of pure awareness. In my mind and beliefs and feelings, the gap is becoming smaller and smaller.

Letting the Light Work

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I recently went to something called an intensive. For three days I was focused on answering the one question of: “Who am I?” I found I wanted to answer: “What am I?” The facilitator explained that answering “what” is like describing the forest and answering “who” is like saying how one tree is unique. I found it very difficult and also found that I kept wanting to get the spotlight off myself. We weren’t allowed to “help” each other. In fact, we were asked to be in silence; except during the specific exercises. There was one lady in obvious deep emotional pain. It was difficult for me not to focus my attention on her. I asked the facilitator to help her, since I couldn’t. He kept his boundaries pristine by answering that he would be glad to assist her, IF SHE asked him. He said that he had found it was best to just let the light work. I decided to trust him to know his business in facilitating these workshops. I decided to trust the woman to do what was appropriate for her. And I decided to trust my own knowledge that my intention had more to do with getting my attention off myself and onto someone else. AND I decided to trust the light. I decided to let the light work not only in the other woman, but in myself. The rest of the weekend I repeated to myself to let the light work. Some people call “the light” Christ consciousness or the Holy Spirit or the universe or the comforter that Jesus said he would send. No matter the terminology, it’s known to be intelligent and always know how to harmonize any situation. It’s known to always produce the highest good for all involved.

When I let the light work; I don’t focus on the splinter in someone else’s eye. I focus on what I seem to be blind to in myself. When I let the light work; I trust another person’s process for themselves. When I let the light work; I trust my own process. I also don’t degrade myself. If I have a stain on my dress, I certainly never think that I am that stain. I simply change and wash the stain out. Is it really any more difficult for anything I want to change in myself? Not if I can stop identifying whatever it is as a needed or unchangeable part of myself. It is a given that the light always works. Just like water will always flow into the lowest areas until it levels out, so does the light. I trust the nature of light to highlight what I need to see and help me balance it. I don’t have to worry. I feel confident. I feel far more relaxed. I feel peaceful. I make better decisions. I notice more synchronicity in events. I feel more patient and tolerant, even with myself.

Identifying with Our Higher Self

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The main thing that allows my higher self to shine thru and be the doer in my life is how I identify myself. If I choose to identify myself as a human being that doesn’t even have a higher self or even a spiritual self; then my higher self isn’t going to interfere in my free will choice to believe that about myself. The more I identify with my higher self; the more I show my free will indication that I want to acknowledge more with that part of my being. I’ve known for years that I’m a spiritual being having a material experience. And that nothing in the physical actually defines me. No experiences inherently define me. I can always choose how I wish to respond, even if it’s lifetimes later. I can choose differently as many times as I wish until I’m willing to just let go of the experience altogether. What I’m learning is that my physical and spiritual work equally hand in hand. One is the Omega and one is the Alpha. The physical is actually an expression of the spiritual. There’s some mud on the window and there are some filters in the way. The mud and filters are ideas that limit me; beliefs I’ve taken on out of feeling hurt or oppressed or rejected; and decisions I’ve made about what I do or don’t want to experience. But as I clear the mud and filters; more and more of the authentic me can shine thru. I can identify myself with false beliefs and hurt feelings; or I can reach higher. I choose to reach beyond anything I’ve come to feel or believe (especially about myself) based on my experiences on Earth.