What is your current decision regarding each person’s responsibility for their own intentions and actions?

I’m not saying I was not terrified as a child. I’m just saying that I didn’t also have the added stress of a mental quandary in some situations. The first time the monstrous men put a knife in my hand to kill someone was when they insisted I kill an older girl who had always tried to shield me. As soon as the knife handle touched my hand, I threw it with all my might and buried it in the shoulder of one of the men. They were momentarily shocked, then went berserk and made the other children pay dearly for my act of defiance. Then they made one of the younger men crush my hand around the knife handle and the younger man actually killed the child. By that time, I had shut down and was pretty limp anyway. Crushing my hand didn’t remove the responsibility from their shoulders. I’m not going to take on their perverse intentions as my own. It’s not even really stubbornness. It’s just a fact. Perhaps it’s a decision I made in a previous lifetime. But it’s a decision anyone can make in this lifetime, if they wish to.